Billy Jean

Everything and every being on this planet and in the universe are interrelated, some more closely than the others. Humans affect us the most, because we are very similar (not identical) to them and we live in close proximity to them. Properly speaking, all experiences involving humans are "good" because they are catalysts and opportunities for growth, but there comes a point that some humans are so stupid in their ability to understand us and they are causing us so much annoyance that it's not worth the growth opportunity in associating with them. 

Anyway, it's been raining all day here. In the desert, no less. Would you believe that? Drizzling cold rain all day long in the desert. Desert is supposed to be dry and hot. Not here. Not now. When I was suicidal, I feared of the weather like this. I didn't know then one way to combat depression was not to drink beer, watch TV, and feel sorry for yourself. You must get active. You must not stay inside your house. You go to the mall and be surrounded by people. Then you go the gym and run or ride the bicycle until you are exhausted. Afterwards you get into the sauna to relax your muscles. You massage your body, bringing blood to the tired muscles sore from the build-up of lactic acid. Then you immerse yourself in the whirlpool. Try to laugh as much as you can. Live one day at a time. Be wary of people. Don't seek sympathy. Don't confide in anybody. If you must talk, call the suicide hotline. Don't take sleeping pills. Instead, install a punching bag in your house, and hit and kick that bag. You must get mad. You must get yourself energized. You must not get depressed. If you can't sleep, don't worry. You will be tired enough to sleep. Hell, at one time for three weeks straight I survived on three hours of sleep a night. Don't get scared or worried. Fear and anxiety will kill you faster than lack of sufficient sleep or healthy food. I repeat, no fear nor anxiety. You only die once. You only live once, too. Be strong and smart. Learn to forgive yourself. No woman loves you like your own mother does. Trust no woman. All bitches lie and manipulate. A hard man is good to find. And you are such a man. Go out buy a record of Michael Jackson's BillyJean and set it to play over and over again. Dance with the song. Dance like Michael. Do the moonwalk. Okay?

Now you go out and break all the women's hearts

Old, young, and all in between

Woo them, sing them songs, and then say so long

Go, go, go, believe in yourself, I wish you a nice start

A bitch facilely accused me of being a narcissist, thinking I would be angry with that label. Of course I am narcissistic. It's as clear as day. Everybody can see that I am in love with myself. Why not. That's far healthier than hating myself.