Solitude and Loneliness

Everybody knows about the difference between solitude and loneliness. One is sought; the other is experiened and forced upon and keenly felt and a wish to escape from it.

You certainly have been lonely and in a bit of pain, but you soldier on because of pride and dignity. You will do anything for pride and dignity, including killing yourself, and maybe others as well. You are not to going to come across as weak and overly sentimental. You will get used to the new stituation. The collapse of the whole thing was so farcical that you shudder to think of millions of others who just cannot hack it. Everything is just a matter of letting it come and go. Nothing stays. Nothing is important. I laugh it off when people want to cling to an illusion that they mean something to somebody and that they are somehow important to the well-being of others while the simple truth is that we all die and the suffering of unmet expectation is not worth it. Nobody was born in this world to please us. Once you smelled the ugly odor of petulance and calculation, you felt nauseous and has to run away, far and fast.