Giving up on ghosts

Giving up on ghosts

Once you realize that the ghosts look down on you and think you are not their equals, you wake up and the healing process begins. You are not bitter, but wiser and learns to improve yourself. A man has to be comfortable with who he is. You keep on learning while working on your mind and your personality. You started as a romantic fool and are now on your way to be a wise, charming, caring, understanding, popular old man who is loved and adored by women of all ages. Still, you wondered why you had feelings for the ghosts in the first place. It could be they acted as a catalyst to spur your own growth. It could also be that you thought they were decent, caring women, women with a heart.

You talked too much. You were too naive and trusting. You craved for acceptance and understanding. They were right about you. You were childish. Time to grow up. Be cool. Don't be cheap. Don't be sentimental either. Nobody is. So you are stupid if you are sentimental. Be cynical and untrusting and hard. Be on guard. Nobody is real. So you had better not be either. You must move away from writing about Proustian feelings of loss, regret, and ravages of bygone memories.

You are known to be forthright, disarming, uncensored, and a bit unhinged. You are now a bit wiser and chastened, but still never miss an opportunity to hurt and harm yourself with your big mouth. You love to swirl around the eddies of insanity. Yet you wisely said goodbye to her, a lazy, unambitious, all-talks-no-action, and yet unrealistic about her true worth, kind of woman who tends to say really stupid things when mad and angry. She tries to give an impressionthat she thinks she is somebody. But, she does not really think highly of herself. Not at all. She just talks so to make her feel good while stuffing food down her throat in front of the TV which is her true companion. A truly proud woman will never allow herself to be fat and dourly dressed. A truly proud and wise woman keeps her figure svelte and always looks stylish and acts charming. She never loses her temper. She acts and talks smart. She keeps her cool under pressure. She never says a word of sarcasm because she knows sarcasm is a cheap wit. Monkeys and dogs and even pigs know how to use sarcasm. She knows it is stupid and self-destructive to put others down. She knows how to handle herself. She has poise, grace, and class. Men adore her and take delight in her presence.