Farces and Follies

You talked about Laura with strangers, baring your soul. You claimed you had stopped loving her. And then you added that you still felt angry at her for the way she brutally walked out on you. Invariably, after every talk, you felt a rise of bile and bitterness from deep inside you and you wondered what a farce and a folly your love for her truly was. You wonder where you would go when the skin no longer can contain you. You must decide either to get on the fast moving train or to leave the platform altogether. You cannot have one foot on the train and one on the platform. You just related a story in print. Writing it down gave you temporary peace because the story was an investigation into the nature of honesty, truth, and acting. You think most humans engage in dishonesty in everything they do. Only what they feel is real, and not what they say, think, or do. Feelings are the mirrors and the drumbeats of truth, no matter how inchoate or faint they may be. Most of what people say or commit in writing are merely public postures designed to make them look or even feel good about themselves or to score a point in arguing. Most people are not equipped to deal with facts and truths. Most people prefer to live a life with half-truths and inauthencity. They think just because they have intelligence and education, they can handle facts and truths. No, they can't if they don't have courage and self-respect. A self-respecting man would not lie consciously, especially in arguments. Using pseudo arguments and employing sophistry are forms of lying. Lying is also a manifestation of cowardice, a lack of social and emotional courage.

Wissai