Thursday, April 24, 2014

Animalistic and Truly Human Pride

Animalistic and Truly Human Pride

Every functioning human---idiots and sundry other defectives don't count---is aware, some more dimly than others, that he is a human and that means he is superior than the rest of the organisms on this planet. Yet most humans live a life no different than that of sub-humans. Their pride is of the animalistic kind: power, money, food, sex, and procreation, and they die just like the way they live: no awareness and no enlightenment. 

A few humans are able to do things that no sub-humans can: they discover/uncover nature's secrets/structures/functions; they create works of ảt. Additionally, they don't believe in the myths and bullshit that the weak-minded, brainwashed and stupid humans do, such as a Personal God, Man is made in God's image, Judgment Day, reincarnation, etc...

Of course, I regard myself as a true, albeit arrogant and "narrow-minded" and "intolerant" human. Any human who cannot be creative and cannot create works of art or who is too brainwashed and stupid to know any better about what it means to be really human, does not deserve my respect. One time I threw up violently after a woman I had met at a bar told me that she knew she would be okay because God "would take care" of her. When I came back from the bathroom, I sarcastically asked her what made her so fucking special that the other 6 million Jews were not. You see, when I hear statements like hers or "That's in God's hands", I look at those making such statements with utter contempt for they really have no respect for themselves. 

Once you are born stupid and don't know you are stupid, you are likely to stay stupid for life, no matter how sarcastically you attack others while trying to hold up a distorted, better image of yourself. The Jewish woman is such a stupid person. I never fucking claim I am perfect, as she alleged. I only claim I am vastly superior to her in intelligence. especially regarding metaphysics. The bitch is too stupid to see the merits of my views. She is busy defending her stupidity. I would respect her a little bit if she would admit that her statement was erroneous and reflected a childish, infantile craving for a parental protection, and that God indeed belongs to a realm of fantasy and make-believe because nobody has demonstrated God exists. Pleassseee, don't tell me that the absence of evidence does not necessarily mean the evidence of nonexistence. 


Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Ethics, Youth and Growth

Ethics, Youth, and Growth and the article about "The Million Dollar Bet"


I am writing these words extremely fast. I read the eponymous article with total absorption. When I was through, a flurry of thoughts and ideas zipped through my mind at a million miles an hour.

1. The author was wise for so young (24) an age.
2. He was greedy in making the bet.
3. It was good that he lost the bet. I didn't feel sorry for him at all. I hope he learned from the experience.
4. It wasn't actually "The Million Dollar Bet". He was given 3-1 odds and he placed a bet at $300,000 and thought he would easily win $900,000. The misleading title of the article turned me off against the author, although I respected his vast intelligence and precocity. Deep down, he loved to be a teacher while he was not really a honest person. 
5. As a former lousy runner who ran twice for a marathon at 5 hours, the story absorbed my attention for the crazy bettor's flirtations with death or injury. Throughout my life, I have often gone to the extremes and skated close to the edge of the abyss. That's how I know myself and others. That's how I know I am different from most others. 
6. Money is a good test of a person's integrity and love. 
7. I am making a safe bet that I will be down to 155 lbs, able to do 60 push-ups, 200 sit-ups, and 20 pull-ups by October 2014, for $10,000. Want to place a bet against me? I need incentives.

Now the author of the article resigned from high stakes poker, wrote a well-received book about poker, gave away most of his money to fund his parents' retirement and to charity. All of these highly unusual activities occurred after he was involved in two highly publicized scandals which called into question his ethics. As I was reading his book, several thoughts came to me:

1. HQ is a very intelligent young man and an excellent poker player whose ethics, unfortunately, was opaque. He was aware of that. But I must not be too judgmental on him since he is only 24 and evolving. I am 65 and was only definitely averse to unethical activities   when I turned 59.

 2. HQ has been self-aware that he is self-conflicting. I am 65 and in so many ways I am like HQ. He is fond of writing. Writing is to crystallize one's thinking. Reading HQ  is like a taking a trip to facts, truths, and logic, a journey into the nature of epistemology and science of poker. HQ took poker out of the dark ages. Poker after HQ is like economics in the second half of the 20th century and beyond. Before that, economics was just an half-assed exercise of speculations of the nature of economic forces and economic behavior. 

3. High Stakes No Limit Poker is akin to war battle combat or physical fight to the death. It's not for the faint-hearted or the stupid. 

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Death Wish, Fear, and Courage

Death Wish, Fear, and Courage

Sometimes faux courage is fed by anger. True courage is motivated by high principles and knowledge of the meaning of life. We only die once and must do what is right for us. A life without pride nor honor is not worth living.

I have seen many scumbags and assholes shamelessly lie, cheat, beg, and steal just in order to live another day. And yet these same creatures are proud of themselves or at least act as if they were. Proud of what? I always wonder about that since they are not uneducated, ugly, poor, fat, ignorant, stupid, and self-deceiving. If I were them, I would do at least two things: hit the gym and hit the books every fucking day. I would use others who are superior to me as models. I would not denigrate them nor deny their superiorities over me because denial is a sign of cowardice. Facts are facts. I cannot deny facts. Unlike the scumbags and assholes, I cannot wish the facts away. 

I could be stupid and narrow-minded in thinking that those who accepted literally what is in the Bible are stupid or weak-minded or both. They couldn't withstand indoctrination and brainwashing. When you accepted the nonsense as truths, then you are not worth much as a human because a true human knows  sense from nonsense, truth from falsehood, no matter how relentless is the propaganda. Only dumb asses and intellectual weaklings give up thinking for themselves. Fuck, I am not one of those, and never will be. I laughed my head off several years ago when a dude told me that he knew he would always be all right because "God" took good care of him. I immediately retorted, "How the fuck do you know that? What makes you think you're so fucking special. and those who perished in the Nazi concentration camps during World War Two and in Cambodia's Killing Fields during 1975-1979, were not? Get the fuck out of my face, imbecile."

Most humans reveal themselves that they are first and foremost scumbags animals who would do anything to survive: they would lie, cheat, steel, rob, murder, etc...They have no basic dignity and pride. They are thieves and beggars. They are not hunters and warriors. That's why they cannot play poker. Poker is a game of life, a form of financial mortal combat, especially if you play for high stakes. Your opponents are both at once your preys and predators. The game is deadly, and not for cowards and weaklings. 

All human animals fall into one or the other of the following categories: -leaders or followers
-masters or slaves
-smart or stupid
-believers in a bullshit called God or atheists (agnostics are cowards who love straddling the fence)
-liars who want to impress the gullible or speakers of facts and truths

The more I contemplate about the human animals, the more estranged from them I feel. Of course, I have met some very nice human beings whose morality and intelligence are definitely superior to mine, but those angels are very rare while every fucking day I have to put up with human trash and garbage, who have no business to live at all. They weaken the gene pool. Recently, a pompous, self-impressed, and self-important senile Christian female physician made an ass of herself by thinking I didn't know how to write Vietnamese. Here's my reply to her in Vietnamese:

Nầy con mụ Thanh, mi già, lú lẫn, ngu và dốt và bị tẩy não mà cứ chổng mông trên mạng khoe khoang và tiếm danh tiền nhân, thì trạng thái đó không khác chi là của một con thú vật. 

Ta chép lại đây bài ta đã viết ngắn mà gọn để hy vọng rằng mi chịu khó nghiên cứu để đầu óc nhỏ bé của mi mở ra một chút. Ở Canada, chắc mi đọc được tiếng Anh.

Nếu viết về đạo Ki Tô, nên trình bày những giáo điều phản khoa học, trái luận ly', đầy mê tín và hoang đường. Một con người có học và một tí thông minh và nhiều tự trọng không bao giờ có thể tin vào những giáo điều quái đản như thế. Chỉ có những ai có tinh thần nô lệ và thiếu khả năng độc lập,  tra vấn và suy tư thì mới có thể "tin" một cách mù quáng như thế. Nô lệ tư tưởng là một hình thức thảm thương nhất vì kẻ nô lệ không biết mình là nô lệ, và suốt đời phục vụ kẻ thống trị tư tưởng mình. Đâu phải có chút bằng cấp đại học là có khả năng chống lại cái thảm kịch tẩy não đâu. 

Xin tìm đọc Bertrand Russell, Nietzsche, Richard Dawkins, Christopher Hitchens, Sam Harris, và  sách vở lòng về Triết Học và Tâm Lý.

Friday, April 18, 2014

GGM

Gabriel García Márquez 

GGM died today at the age of 87. The news got on the wire this morning and soon the whole world knew about the death of the writer. A few years before I took up Spanish somewhat earnestly (and that was almost thirty years ago) I had come across his most famous book in an English translation. I took it home and read it. I was confused and bewildered by the narrative, even though I had no problem none whatsoever with the language into which the novel was translated.

A few years later, I had to read the novel in the original and then write a term paper about it. That was when I had to read up critical essays written in both English and Spanish about the novel. Then I slowly appreciated the beauty of imagination and the art of lying in such a way that there are truths in lying. Lying is truly an art that most humans try to do, but only a few excel. 

Anyway the news of GGM's death brought back some beautiful memories of my struggle with the Spanish language. I learned to recognize the genius of some Spanish language writers whose writings would shame most, if not all contemporary Vietnamese prose writers. Besides, GGM, read Ernesto Sabato, Cortázar, Rulfo, Asturias, Fuentes, and Agustín Yáñez, just to name a few novelists not familar to the uninitiated. 

I am going to resume my journey with Spanish and French languages before it's too late. I need to stop wasting my time with fools and ignoramuses.

April 17, 2014
Wissai

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Superiority, Inferiority, and Silence

Superiority and Inferiority and Silence 

My favorite dictum, "one must know who one is and where one stands in relation to others", rings true when examined within the context of the unending, acrimonious, and insults-laden "debates" among the Vietnamese on the Net about the "roles" and "responsibilities" of the Catholics or Buddhists for the collapse of South Vietnam in the Second Indochina War.

Anybody can and is indeed "qualified" to state his views about religion and politics. All he needs to do is to run his mouth. However, his very views about religion and politics sharply show his intelligence, evolutionary development as a human, and knowledge. In general, the below can never fully understand the above. So a debate is productive only when it takes place among peers. There is no point to hold a conversation with uneducated, uninformed, fanatical, brainwashed, insulting, foul-mouthed and stubborn dumb asses who have no respect for facts, truths, and logic. Silence is a better alternative. If one must speak, one must do so with unadorned facts. 

Since most human chimps and monkeys on this planet don't really know who the fuck they are and where they stand in relation to other organisms and sentient beings, I have devised a very simple but highly efficacious test to ascertain their true nature and level of  evolutionary development. I would subject them yo the following rapid-fired questions. They must answer the questions on the top of their heads, no hemming and hawing allowed. They are, however, allowed to say as much as they want. I would only cut them off if they go off the tangent and recite the ready-made responses spoon-fed to them by their religious and political "leaders" or their own misguided, stupid, uninformed, unschooled parents:

1. Who and what are you?
2. Why are you on this planet?
3. What will happen to you after you die?
3. Who and what is God?
5. Who made/created God?
6. Now tell me frankly, do you believe in God or not? Why or Why not?
7. What do you think about religion and politics?
8. What about power? Do you like power? 
9. Which do you prefer: power or love? sex or food?
10. Finally, what do you think of the following categories:

-Onanism
-Bestiality
-Homosexuality
-Sexual perversions in general
-Murder, homicide, genocide
-Jews
-Chinese
-Russians
-Arabs
-Blacks
-Asians
-Racism
-Xenophobia
-Human race
-Anti-Semitism
-Nazism
-Hitler. Was he evil or a misunderstood genius?
 
Thank you for answering the questions. I will let you know who and what you are and where you stand in the scheme of things, if you so desire. Now I need to take a repose. See you. 

Wissai

P.S.

I wrote the above and got some cathartic relief. Then by chance I read a story about a legendary poker player who is universally considered one of the best, if not very best poker player on this planet, and a fearless gambler on craps and baccarat. The story had nothing to do with his gambling, but his being cool after being slapped in the face by his scrawny poker friend. Reading the story calmed me down. I felt like I just had a session with a caring friend who was also a shrink. Cool is my motto now. I am going to be cool and graceful under pressure. Hemingway wrote a lot about being graceful under pressure: being a bullfighter, boxer, frontline war reporter, or contemplating taking one's own life calmly and gracefully, like the cherry blossoms falling off the branches in one breezy, sun-drenched, Spring morning. To live is to wait for Death to come at anytime while hopefully finding out that one is loved and cared for by some steadfast lover, without nary a complaint nor sound and fury. 


Friday, April 11, 2014

Hit Men

Hit Men

STORNOWAY, Scotland — Everyone starts as a novice, whatever your job. You bumble around, make mistakes, learn by doing. It applies in any walk of life, and the criminal industry isn’t any different. A team from Birmingham City University’s Center for Applied Criminology has carried out the first typological study of British hit men, and it starts, of course, with the novice.
Santre Sanchez Gayle — a novice seeking to impress the senior members of his gang, according to a case detective — was just 15 when he was paid the pitiful sum of 200 pounds (about $330) to kill a young woman. He was caught only because he bragged about the murder: the greatest sin of the professional killer.
The novice can be easy to study. He’ll make mistakes, like leaving just enough forensic evidence behind or using an easily traceable weapon. He goes to jail. And it will, almost always, be a he. Of the 36 convicted hit men studied, only one was a woman, Te Rangimaria Ngarimu. She turned herself in after a hit in 1992. Failure is the cost of experience, but this is a job where failure, even a minor one, costs you everything.
I write crime novels, with a focus on organized crime. A lead character who’s supposed to be a skilled hit man becomes a tricky construction when there’s so little by way of facts to base him on. 
For the criminologists, the dearth of knowledge was a motivator for the study, published in a recent issue of The Howard Journal of Criminal Justice. It was an attempt to examine the methodologies of the British hit man with the hope of helping law-enforcement officers to better understand the kind of people they’re chasing. 
The dilettante, the journeyman and the master are the other categories. The dilettante is typically a desperate man and, though older than the typical novice, is often no more experienced. Driven by a need for money, he accepts a role he isn’t fit to play. The study’s most notable dilettante is Orville Wright, a former legal clerk. He was offered 5,000 pounds to murder Theresa Pitkin in 1996, and broke into her apartment with a knife. Then, rather than kill her, he started talking to her. He decided he couldn’t go through with it. This wasn’t a coldblooded killer.
The journeyman is an old pro, experienced and far removed from his novice days. He represents a significant change from the first two categories. He probably has organized-crime connections. Roger Vincent and David Smith worked together in 2003 in the execution of David King, who was an underworld figure, suspected by his killers of having become a police informant. They waited for him outside his local gym in a stolen van and, when he emerged, fired more than 25 rounds from an AK-47, killing him instantly. They fled the scene, burned the van and switched to another vehicle. But a glove found at the scene of the vehicle switch gave the police Mr. Smith’s palm print. One small mistake in an otherwise carefully planned and executed hit gave the police the clue they needed.
Where Mr. Wright planned to use a knife, Mr. Vincent and Mr. Smith had the contacts necessary to source a gun, no easy task in Britain. But where the previous categories carried out a killing in desperation for money, or to impress someone, for the journeyman it’s just a job. There’s no guesswork. 
The master is an evocative term for a suitably mysterious group. As the authors say, their study is necessarily based on failure: They can study only those who are caught. A master doesn’t find himself in court. While that ghostliness is a lure for fiction writers like me, it’s a frustration for researchers.
The problem with the best hit men is that the only thing we know about them is that they exist. We see their victims, and the victims’ cause of death, but that’s all. Unlike a researcher, tied to facts, a crime writer’s greatest thrill is perhaps mystery: Our hit man’s a blank canvas, to be decorated with the contents of our imagination. Maybe he starts as a novice, young and desperate. He develops and improves, and a degree of mastery slithers in and takes over. 
The study points out that the single greatest tactic for avoiding detection is to never work in the area where you live. Move around, every job in a different place where you have no roots to trip over. The outsider. Perhaps a man of military background, working with military precision, but an outsider.
All of which is why our fictional hit men are a suitable distance from reality. Whatever type they fit, even the nonmasters, they have to stay masterfully free for at least 80,000 words. 
The study describes the locations and manner of the hits as often “not unusual and extraordinary, but rather commonplace and ordinary.” It describes the reasons for many hits being ordered as “mundane.” Not descriptions creators of fiction want to carry with them.
So we read mountains of books about hit men, watch countless hours of them on screen. We play video games where we’re dropped into the role of the killer. Something draws us to these people in fiction. It’s the fact that, in reality, we would never do that job. There’s a line in the sand that a normal person won’t cross, no matter how desperate we are or how high the price. 
That idea, of doing something so inhuman, makes the hit man intriguing. Getting close to the unknowable, creating a character who occupies the corners so dark no normal person can see into them. We don’t want to be hit men. We don’t find them glamorous; we’re repulsed by them. But we want to understand. As soon as we recognize something as being beyond our sensibilities, we have a need to learn why this isn’t the case for others. It isn’t a desire to see them succeed that leads us to crime fiction but bear rather the chance to stand close and watch how they fail. A need to understand that motivates researcher, writer and reader alike. 

Malcolm Mackay  is the author, most recently, of the novel “The Sudden Arrival of Violence.” 

Wissai's Sidebar:

Anyone who has bothered to read my posts knows that I have created a hit man character, Omar Sabat. Two female readers (all my rabid fans are females. Males historically have shown distaste and disgust and displeasure at my assertions of superiority and contempt for the human race. They typically try to take me down via lies and insults instead of cogent arguments based on facts and logic. My reaction to these enfeebled and pathetic endeavors is to continue viewing these intellectually dishonest, ignorant, and stupid scumbag detractors with unadulterated and unalloyed contempt for these creatures are not fit and qualified to kiss my ass and lick my boots) have confessed to me that they like the character very much and wonder if Omar is real and based on my exploits! Their inquiries of course pleased me tremendously. I don't care for science fiction or far-out fantasies like zombies and all that crap. I prefer hard-boiled realism with an edge. Violence is part and parcel of life. There are moments we are called upon to kill, and we must be ready for them. We must execute our actions decisively and with finesse, if at all possible. There's art in everything humans do. 

Breakthrough and "Residence " versus Place of "Residence" and all that Jazz



Breakthrough

There are two things I learned from the Corsican Midget (Napoleon Bonaparte)

1. The word "impossible" is not in my vocabulary, by which I mean my first reaction to any challenge is hope and potentiality. However, I do not equate hope with wishful thinking. To me, Personal God and Heaven are myths designed for fools and cowards and weaklings. 
2. Opportunities only come to those who are prepared.

Last night I had a good luck sitting next to a thirty-something Armenian dude who told me about his father who overcame late-stage prostrate cancer by following to the letter the Gerson therapy. You may think I am gullible, but the chance encounter with the Armenian and his disclosure about his Dad hit me with a blinding clarity about my good luck and breakthrough. I immediately went on Groupon and ordered a deluxe juicer.  Then I went to the gym, with visions of longevity dancing in my head while homicidal impulses being washed out to the sea. In the sauna, I did Yoga stretching exercises with composure and serenity that had recently been absent. Perspiration poured out of me and I felt purged and cleansed of toxins, both physical and  mental (okay, ultimately speaking, there's no demarcation line between the physical and the mental. And you have to be highly evolved to be aware of that "fact"). I then soaked myself in the whirlpool for 20 minutes, experiencing peace.

After I got back to my place of "residence" (I think there's a difference between "residence" and "place of residence", but I am not very sure about that), I took out from the bookshelf a paper back edition of the French translation of a young female Italian author's debut novel. The book enjoyed huge success. By the way, she was a philosophy major in college. As I was reading the novel and struggling with the language, a joyful pride permeated my being. I told myself that I needed to replicate the experience more often. 

I then went to bed at reasonable hours and proceeded to have all kinds of weird dreams that called for some interpretations. But I think I understand the gist of these dreams. They are the calls and sirens of emotional independence and freedom. Attachment is a form of slavery. In essence, you have only yourself to love and take care of. We were born alone and will die alone. Life is a series of adjustments to our aloneness. Love is an undying fiction. The more I interact with humans, the more I detest most of them and wish them ill because they are liars and scumbags. Just when I thought I could trust somebody, their true nature shows in full splendor. 

Postcriptum:

Every time I pontificate about language usage, I am conscious of the possibility of making an ass of myself as Wilson did when he dared question Nabokov's proficiency in Russian. Anyway, a reader of mine said that the difference between "residence" and "place of residence" is similar to the difference between "house" and "home". I disagreed. The closest to "place of residence" is "dwelling". We use "place of residence" when we don't want to specify or don't know what kind of shelter in which the individual in question stays: a house, a rented room in a house, a condo, a mansion, a prefab house trailer, or a tepee. "Residence" implies a stately, settled, prosperous-looking house. It is very difficult to use "residence" properly. 

Yesterday evening a barely educated native speaker of English brought up the issue of ungrammaticality of my statement: "He played the piano real good." I replied, "Son, you had a point, but maybe you didn't realize I was just speaking colloquial English. In modern spoken American English, there's a tendency for the speakers to use adjectives in place of adverbs. Maybe that's the recursion to the Germanic roots of English or maybe Americans are just getting lazy and don't bother to add the suffix "-ly". I am no linguist. So I don't know." By that time, a pretentious eavesdropper chimed in,  "Well, in Spanish and French, adjectives and adverbs are used interchangeably, as in German." I replied, "I don't know French and Spanish well, but I don't believe that's the case. Would you give me an illustration?" The dude then cited the case of "bueno" and "bien" in Spanish. I pointed out to him that "bien" is often used as an adverb, and only as an adjective when indicating state of well-being, as is the case of "well" in English. "By the way," I added, "don't use 'no problemo' when pretending to speak Spanish, as it's strictly not grammatical, unless you deliberately use the expression as an American slang."
 
The point of this diatribe is that to really know a language, it takes a lifetime of immersion and devotion. I only know one language well enough to express myself in writing in it. And I make mistakes everyday.